When you've lost someone you
love, music can be either heartbreaking, a welcome distraction, helpful, healing or
something else entirely. There is no predictability to what will happen when
you turn on the radio or TV and hear a favourite song or even one
you've never heard before. You have to have strength, be prepared to feel your
feelings, good or sad, and carry on.
This is especially the case when you are a widow or widower. More than half the songs ever written are love songs. When you've lost the love of your life, this can be an exercise akin to walking on broken glass.
Today, Grief stopped by to visit for a few minutes as I was listening to music. A ballad on my iPod made me think of my departed husband, Al, and the love I've lost from my daily life. Tears flowed. My broken heart bled a little more. I gathered myself together and kept on working, kept the music playing, and heard an unexpectedly beautiful surprise.
Santana. Al's favourite artist.
I felt Al's spirit with me, his hands on my shoulders, asking me to smile. Reminding me to think of the best concert we ever attended - Santana in Saskatoon a few years before Al got sick and died. It was an amazing night.
I looked at my iPod to see the name of the song since it wasn't one I've memorized.
Europa.
Its subtitle:
Earth's Cry Heaven's Smile.
Thank you, Al. You're the best.
Thank you, Al. You're the best.
